So...yeah...

So, there are only 4 days of school left for me, and then I will be a senior! I"m so excited that summer break is almost here. Though, I'm not very excited about this week because this week is finals week...bleh! I don't want to study for finals. Also, I have to take my SAT june 6th, so I still have to study for something after I get out of school which sucks hardcore. I can't wait until June 7th because then I will truly be able to relax...well sort of anyways. I'm leaving for NYC Baby on June 8th. I can't wait. I'm so pumped, and it will be even better than the last trip because there are only 10 students going, and all 10 of them are like my best friends...i'm so excited! As I'm typing, I'm trying to finish my French final review packet...it's not working out too well. I have no motivation! So...yeah...I'm bored. Well, peace out yo! Maybe I can find a way to motivate myself...

It's been 2 months since I lasted posted something. I've missed it. I've been really busy though with school and work lately which I won't have to worry about now. Well, school I'll have to worry about but not work. I got laid off/fired. whatever you want to call it, and you would think that I would be upset. But I'm not. I was going to quit anyways, and i really really hated working there. It was so boring and dreadful. The only disappointment was that I needed that money to finish paying for BigStuf. Now that I don't have that money, I have to figure out a way to pay for it. Hopefully, I can get my parental units to pay for it, and then I can just pay them back. Hopefully, that is. Well, now that I don't have a job, and there is only 4 weeks of school left, I'm so pumped for summer. I get to go back to New York City this summer. I'm so excited to go back there. I really love that city, and I really want to see Andy again, the man who inspired The Andy Project. Also, the last time we went, we had so many great memories. I'm ready to make some more especially since come of my friends who haven't been to NYC before are coming with us. It will be really fun. I'm ready to have more great stories about NYC to tell my friends at home about. This summer is going to be fantastic. First of all, I'm going to both NYC and Florida. I also love Florida. Secondly, I get to be a counselor at camp again. That was really fun last year, and it was a great learning experience for me. Plus, I like being looked up to. Little 3rd and 4th graders are so cute even though they can be a pain in the butt at times. Then there are the junior highers who can also be a pain in the butt, but they are more able to watch after themselves than the elementary kids. I love camp. I always have. There is something about camping that brings back memories from I was a little kid. It so fantastic. Also, this is the summer before my senior year which means it is going to be amazing! Hopefully. I can't wait to be a senior. I'm going to feel so experienced and powerful. It's going to be fantastic. Well, there isn't much else to say at the moment. So peace out homies!

It's getting better....slowly but surely....

So, this week is going better than prior weeks...which is a good sign. I'm a little stressed about some school projects but nothing I can't handle. There's is just this one project for my Etymology class that I don't understand how to do....hopefully I'll figure it out soon. I hate school projects. They stress me out so much. Unfortunately, I can't go to prom because I've already lost two dates...and I realized this past weekend that I won't have to money to buy my prom ticket so boo. Oh well, I'll get over it. So, this sunday while we were worshipping at Focus...something just all of a sudden hit me. I realized that I just needed to chill out...these past few weeks i've been stressing so much. I realized that I don't need that stress and worry because there is already someone worrying about it for me...God. I've been really insecure lately...but i don't need a boy to make me feel good. I've had a little infatuation with this guy...and ever since sunday i've just all of sudden been turned off by the idea. I mean he's a great guy, and I really like but I don't need a boy right now. I'm not ready for a boy right now. I need to focus on my priorities. It feels so good to realize that i don't have to set have to set high expectations for myself anymore. I always used to be so anal about everything I did, but now i've realized that no matter what...God is going to be there to catch me. I've always known that, but I've never really embraced it. Even though those chains have been broken for awhile, I've still been holding on for dear life. I don't need to anymore. I'm just going to jump off that cliff...and i may fall in the water correctly or i may smack my face straight on the surface of that water. I don't care anymore. I mean i care to an extent...but i know that no matter what happens...God is going to be there to pick me back up, and this time I'm going to let Him.

Life is stressful!

So, so far this week has sucked hardcore. First of all, my mom's boyfriend's son died. I mean I wasn't close to him or anything heck i didn't even meet him, but I feel really bad for Doug. I mean he's like a father to me, and I can't even imagine what he is going through right now. Another thing, I have about 3 projects due in like 2 weeks...and i haven't even started on them yet which i know is my fault but i'm too stressed to even think about school right now. I mean i have a hard time falling asleep which also really sucks cause i'm so tired! also, audrey's in the hospital....she's really sick...and they don't know what's wrong with her. I'm so scared that something is seriously deathly wrong with her. It kills me to even think about her dying...i can't handle...and frankly if it does happen i don't think i could handle it. But i'm probably just being paranoid...she's probably going to be fine...but i can't help but think the worst. It a curse i have to deal with...i always think the worst. My mom's pretty much has been gone every night this week because she has been in Muncie with Doug...and i hate it when she's gone...though i won't tell her that because i know that she would stay home and i don't want her to do that because i know how much doug needs her right now....even more than i need her right now. I like to pretend that i don't need anyone because everyone has enough problems as it is without having mine as well. I'm just going to hide my true feelings because i find them to be selfish and i really don't want to have my mom hurt doug by not being there with him by having to stay home with me because i feel really alone without her home....life sucks...i wish i would just quit getting smacked in the face by one thing after another...it hurts

Elevate Pics!

Here are some pics from Elevate. I only took two of them, but I love them all so much that I decided that I love them so much that I wanted to put them on here.

Here is a pic of Ayla, Ben, and Me in the coffee shop myspazzzing it out!!!


This is a pic of a group of us huddled in together. This pic reminds me of the one we took at Elevate two years ago except for that one had Parker in it.


This is a pic of Lydia, Hannah, and me at the ski resort, and we are being dorks like we are always being!


This pic is of Ben and Yancy myspazzing it. Ben LOVES Yancy! He would not stop talking about her the whole weekend!


...And this is a pic of Ben dancing on top of a chair in our church's cabin! Ben I love you, but you are a really big dork!

Elevate!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, of course Elevate was amazing! It always is, but this time it was very very powerful! I also met some new people (Evan and Ben), and I got to know people I already knew a little bit better (Nobbe and Wong). On the way there, we watched Planet Earth which was actually and surprisingly very interesting. If it weren't for Nate Reeves and his love for the Planet Earth videos, I would have never known that they could actually be interesting. The snow up there was fantastic!!!!!!! Yay! Snow! The only bad thing about it was that we couldn't really go snowtubing because the snow wasn't really packed very much because it never stopped snowing. It was amazing! I also want to say that I am very proud of Ben Worland. He gave his life to Jesus this weekend, and I am very proud of him. I had just met him Friday on the bus ride there, but as I got to know him over the weekend, I found out what a great person he is and how fun he really is (except for the constant reptitive singing of 'Oh Happy Day' J/k dog! ). Also, the speaker, Matt Massey, was really really good. He really made me see things in a different way. It was interesting especially the part about how we are all princes and princesses of the Almighty King. I also want to say that I am sorry for getting so angry with you Poopie (Matt Madson for those who don't know)! I still love you! In fact, I miss you as I am typing this. I really enjoyed this past weekend (even though it is Thursday already...sorry for publishing so late), but it went way too fast. I love these trips. They really make me feel like I am that much closer to our youth group which makes me very happy indeed. Our youth group is like my second family and probably the most functional of the two. You guys really keep me going and on my feet even when times are tough. Thanks for being there. I really do love all of you guys! Well, peace out homies!


~Lindsey

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I am really bored....and not wanting to do my homework. so far, I am really happy that all my classes are so uber easy and/or fun that my school day goes by uber fast....and i've also decided that uber is my new favorite word....it's made of awesome! Just like nerd fighters(...oh John Green you are the best!) I am tired reading all the books I own over and over again, so i've borrowed a couple books from Anna...and so far the first one i am reading is kind of cheesy....but you know good kind of cheesy...i mean is says...." What the frig is that?" That sentence to me is like one of the best sentences ever! and that's just because the word 'frig' is in it! It is also currently snowing....heavily....which rarely occurs here in podunk, Indiana! So i am very happy about that! I've decided that i want to start a vlog (video blog for those of who don't know)! I don't know why, but i was just all of sudden like "OMJ! I should totally start a vlog!" I enjoy broadcasting my life....it's worth it...plus, making videos is so much fun! yes! yes it is! well peace out homies...for now!

~ Lindsey Erin